<3 IT'S SWEET! :D

2010-08-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

I am really tired of doing this.

Why do I have to keep accomodating others?

Why do I always have to go by people's decisions?

When I dont, people always get upset with me. They stop talking tto me, start ignoring me and IDK WHAT.

when I do, they are happy.

HELLO. I have a life too. LIFE ISNT ALL ABOUT YOU. CAN YOU NOT BE SO SELFISH.

CAN YOU NOT "WTH" ME. IM SERIOUSLY UPSET BY THIS OKAY.

the choice is mine. who are you to interfere? why must I always give in? why must I always force myself to accomodate others so that they will behappy?

is this really called CARING for others?

so what if I care?

why do I not get cared for in return?

WHY IS IT THAT WHEN IM UPSET, I KEEP IT WITHIN MYSELF SO THAT OTHERS WONT BE HURT TOO, but when others are upset, they vent their frustration on me?!

FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I AM A HUMAN TOO I HAVE FEELINGS TOO OKAY.

IF I CAN KEEP THAT LITTLE FRUSTRATION INSIDE ME, WHY CANT YOU?

LIFE'S UNFAIR. FACE IT.

IF YOU WANT STH TO BE DONE THIS WAY. IT DOESNT MEAN THAT PPL WANT TO DO IT YOUR WAY.

CAN YOU THINK OF OTHERS AS WELL?

SERIOUSLY.

stop acting like a spoilt brat and making it sound like ppl's fault.

everyone has diff povs.

face it.

2010-08-04T17:59:00.003+08:00

SIGH.

the interview was...

though i know im alr contented and happy with being nominated, i still cant help but really wish that i'll get it.

but yeah, the interview was kinda screwed, llike always.

so yeah. sigh.

2010-07-21T19:43:00.002+08:00

LUNCH AT SAKAE WAS

1) super filling

2) super funny

SO... after everyone left, adrea meij jas and I were sitting there, gobbling up our food and talking... haha the stupid things we were talking about.

oh my :D

esp the part about jas' chinese teacher. super epic man. the chocolate drink splashed onto white board part. haha can just imagine!!!

and then the meij! jas was saying "HARROS HARROS (means hello in a stoops accent haha) while looking for the waiter, and then meij went "WHAT ROSE WHAT ROSE" haha then adrea and I laughed and laughed.

then meij kept asking and jas said a lot of stupid stuff about "rise and ROSE" and "ROSEter" and we were laughing and laughing and meij was blur as usual :D

haha. then we explained and she realised.

super epic:D

HAHAHA

2010-07-19T22:41:00.003+08:00

sian. no matter how much i try to persuade others to go, it never ever works out.

i give up.

and i shant care anymore.

sometimes i wonder why i care so much when others do not.

2010-07-09T21:50:00.004+08:00

ughhhh i hope the bird doesnt predict correctly c'mon spain you've got to give your best shot for the finals!!!!!!

k.

football craze.

first time in my life i actually woke up in the middle of the night to catch the match :D

hm... it wasnt exciting at all. in fact, it was one of the most boring games ive ever watched. haha and tbh i havent really watched a lot. but yup, i think spain just got lucky this time round. with or without muller from germany.

so yesssss anyway i really hope they'll win! though just a few days ago i thought they wouldnt. hehhhh anyway i hope that bird/parrot/whatever will predict wrongly! SPAIN MUST WINNNN. MUSSTTTTTT.

:)

2010-07-09T21:50:00.001+08:00

ESPANA!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-08T16:41:00.001+08:00

i need a nap.

2010-06-27T16:00:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL TMR.

OH THE HORROR ;(

So, what have I actually done this hols? hm.. k i'll list them here:

-math assignment, revision exercise, fa1 and fa2

-chinese paper2 (ONE ONLY O:)

-tried studying chem equilibria and abs

-chem pt (still not completed though)

-eng compre mcq 2

-jap hw

gosh is that all I did over the hols?!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

sucks to be me.

wasted the whole of the hols. i hate myselffffff ):

wasted so much time.

omg howwwwwwwwww.

COMING UP:

ss pt

chem pt

ss sa

math sa

el sa

fainting alr.

2010-06-20T16:53:00.002+08:00

okay i told myself i would shut down the comp and do some productive work at 4pm.

guess what.

it's 4.53pm now.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

tmr will be the start of the last week of hols ): i still have 99% of work not done.

somebody help me!

2010-06-15T18:00:00.001+08:00

time to get a new blogskin soooooooon :)

2010-06-12T20:03:00.004+08:00

whooooohoooooo bowling is so fun!

let's go bowling again! must go during weekdays though $4.30 is quite ex ._. maybe places like SAFRA will be cheaper heeeee (:

batch outing is (Y)!

2010-06-08T17:29:00.000+08:00

tired ):

2010-06-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

i gave in to temptation ):
went to reread the atc and stc blog posts, and realised how much time has passed since then.

things changed.

anyway, i have a piece of good news :)
i converted the powerpoint to movie file using this super cool software called Moyea.....

it's a trial so the video has the word MOYEA inside. I know its not too cool like this, but its decent, at least. ((:

yay.

2010-06-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

haha went to google sterling knight 'cause saw the name everywhere on c's blog. honestly, he doesnt look that great in the photos heehee.

sorry, c.

anyway, yup. looking forward to batch outing and rv's comp next week, even though i think we'll just flunk the comp. oh well, just wishing ourselves all the best. there's nothing much we can do now anyway.

hm, went for sl this morning. kimbrey reminded me about the amount of work we have to do. D: but here i am, still slacking away. i have half a mind to go sieve through my 28942378298652 posts and reread the ATC/STC posts last time, but im really afraid that my whole night will be spent thinking about all the memorable stuff out there.

got to have some restrain, girl.

D:

im very very very insane nowadays. addicted to stupid thingz like checking my hotmail inbox repeatedly. as if a mail will pop up every 2 seconds. why do I keep checking then??

Seriously, idk.

ok maybe I know. but i guess im just stupid. okay readers, you wont understand what i've just said so i wont continue.

AHHHHHH i gotta stop myself from doing stupid things. no matter how much i keep telling myself, it doesnt work.

GOSH, what's up with me.

need to get back to work!!~

2010-06-02T21:23:00.002+08:00

Havent blogged in ten gazillion years ;)

The first ever interunit captain's ball comp RG organised wasn't bad, in my opinion, but there was definitely a lot of room for improvement. Many things were so last minute because people couldnt keep to deadlines. We got almost everything at the last minute. Trophies, drinks, food, certs, (even one of the scorechartO:). Okay, thankfully, even though it was last minute, we still managed to get them. Otherwise, the whole competition would have been really screwed.

When we reached in the morning, we realised that there were no speakers. So there goes our song dedication booth. Communiation with the crowd had to be through that pathetic red loudhaler thing. Tried to announce stuff over PA. Failed.

Umpires werent sure of what to do. Games were starting/starting in 1 min and there werent any balls. Ushers were chitchatting amongst themselves when they were supposed to be chatting with the teams.

Everything was a mess. Really. But the happy thing was, it wasnt bad until the whole game couldnt proceed, thankfully.

But the bad thing was that one RV guy and one Hwach guy lost their wallets. oh yes i gotta mention this. one rv guy found a wallet in a pile of shit in the guy's toilet hahaha and he was brave ttm - took a tongs, picked out the wallet, brought it to us and shoved it in our faces HAHA.

but anyway, this capt's ball comp is really memorable.

i lovethe matches anyway (:

2010-06-01T13:39:00.001+08:00

Im sorry but I almost fainted when I read s a m l a u' s blogpost.

2010-05-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

DARK BLUE 14IN ACER LAPTOP AHHHHH ♥♥♥

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2010-05-11T20:03:00.000+08:00

Disappointment in someone you treat as a good friend.

2010-05-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

if you're unhappy just tell me.

dont post on fb and let the whole world think that im the one at fault or sth. you cant take jokes then so be it. who wants to criticise you for goodness sake, petty little _____. and stop thinking that you're so good and popular and i owe you a living or sth. you suck leh, seriously!

you hate it?

i hate you. yucks.

Unspoken words

2010-05-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

I wish they would know how miserable I am sometimes.
I know they are good friends, and they have a lot to talk about, but is this how you treat someone after the reconcilation with your best friend? When they werent talking, they talked to me. When they patched up, they start talking about ___ again. Just like last year.

I was starting to forget how bad last year was already, and then now all the memories come back. I remember how they always talk about ___ and how lonely I felt esp when they just kept talking about it and excluded me cause I wasnt in it and had no idea about what was going on.

I thought it would be better now that ----- is not in ___ but now I know. It isn't any better. I realise that surprisingly, everything they talk about links to ___.

Im really sad, and disappointed, to be exact.

I told myself I wouldnt cry over this kind of things again last year. I think I broke my promise. I really hate it. I neeed to be independent. I don't want to have to rely on them anymore.

2010-04-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

What a nice day thursday will be.

Hand in Geog AA.
Math GA.
PFT 5 Items.

I hope I can do well for all. I need at least a C for all 5 items (PFT) D:

2010-04-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

“If something bothers you about someone, you are recognizing an attitude that is actually within you. When you feel it does not affect you and you can respond calmly, it means that this weakness is no longer in you.”

2010-04-23T19:54:00.000+08:00

Getting over it;

2010-04-17T18:20:00.002+08:00

absolutely loves silly fan pages which are totallly true :D

i think im beginning to love watska more and more, esp with the funny little things we do together.

and omg! i didn't know ms tsang and mr lau are married hahah that's big news!

2010-04-17T14:40:00.003+08:00

off goes braces, here comes retainers O:

2010-04-12T21:05:00.001+08:00

sometimes I really wish I'll be able to meet you again, because only then will there be stuff to talk about, and talking to you cheers me up.

2010-04-10T21:29:00.001+08:00

OMERS FTW :)

PERFORMANCE WAS BEST! LOVE THE ACSI PROBLEM ONE! FUNNIESTTT HOMO THING.

2010-04-04T21:57:00.001+08:00

omg when I pasted 이홍기 into google translate, guess what the eng translated meaning was!

"FT ISLAND"

hahaha omg they're such nooobs.

2010-04-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

I must curb myself from the temptation.

I shouldnt keep checking. I'm crazy. (P.s. & maybe you shouldnt have told me to go.)

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aghhhhh chenyan your blogskin is really nice hahah im loving it. Gotta change mine sooon I think i won't be able to resist putting 이홍기 's pic all over :D HAHAHA. 홍기's the best :D

& NO. SHINee is cool but FTI is way better (: I went to check out how Key looked like cause everyone's so crazy about him and when I saw his pic I was just like.......... anyway, 홍기's the best lah, as I said. HAHA. ♥

2010-04-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

415 is spastic and that's why I love it ♥

April Fools':
We fooled MR A AND MRS YAP :D HAHA. ggossshhh i love my class. we turned the clock to half an hour later than what it should be, and when half bell rang, we all packed up and left us, leaving our 2 teachers with "THANK YOU AND GOODBYE MR A AND MRS YAP" and a note on the visualiser saying " Out for jog. Be back soon. Love 415 @11.20am" and ran off, jogging one round around J Blk :D

Then we came running back and hurried back into class, changed the time on the clock and said "SORRY TEACHERS, WE'RE LATE" HAHAHAH WE ARE AWESOME SHIZZLES :D Mr A and Mrs Yap made us run 2 rounds around the track. Hehehehe we pretended to faint on the track and we took shortcuts hahahaha got exposed thoughhhhh :x

Then when we got back to classs Mrs Yap left a note on the visualiser HAHAHA FORGOT WHAT IT WAS but it was epic!!

:D

Class movie @ Lido:
Caught The Lovely Bones at Lido heheh met other RGS girls there haha it was awesome cause when we watched the the scary part everyone (from RG) screamed our lungs out HAHAHA.

There was one part sherry was just epic. It wasnt even scary and she made this funny sound hahahaha super funny everyone from 15 knew it was her hahaha:D super gooood. didn't go to sa's house for sleepover though. think it'll be fun :D

2010-04-03T21:45:00.001+08:00

yay love my new wallet :)

2010-04-03T11:23:00.003+08:00

Had a weird dream last night.

Everything took place in J Blk shared classroom, how surprisingly familiar it was.

Anyway, it sort of progressed from some treasure hunt game to some Area 15 games thingum made up of our batch, Nanyang and NCC Land. WHICH WAS KINDA WEIRD, and to top it all, MR A WAS THE TEACHER IN CHARGE.

And we were going to do the tenga lumpat (okay I dont know how to spell) sedia to do our roll call, but then suddenly lanqiao said she doesnt feel like doing etc etc and then MR A called off the roll call (or is it role call ah whatever) which I was looking forward to, cause it was the last area 15 thing we were having together ):

Then I rmbed crying. Heh.

Now I know why I was crying. Obviously it wasnt because of the stupid games thingum which I cant even recall. It was because I know Im going to miss my batch when we leave, even though we may be going to the same JC. But still.. we wont be tgt having fun anymore.

I seriously never thought that I was going to miss NP at all. Okay I think NP is just the common platform we all had to interact. I dont miss NP, I miss the people there who made NP fun for me. But I guess everything has to end someday.

);

Ytd I suddenly thought of the NDP song we performed last year and all the fond memories came back. I realised I dont think of those practices (including campcraft comp prac) until late evening as annoying and a-waste-of-my-time. Instead I think I like them a lot a lot a lot. It was probably the time we can all sit down tgt and gossip and bond together. Oh well. I think Im probably emoing now.

D:

Sigh. I really hope I'll be able to treasure whatever we do now and not think too much about it.

I never ever liked the name Snuffles. But now I like it a lot.

2010-03-30T21:43:00.002+08:00

How should I be feeling?

I dont know.
But talking to val does help a bit.

I think I've just begun to lost whatever direction I've found a couple of weeks ago. I dont know where I should be heading now.

I'm sure I won't be able to sleep well tonight.

And it's going on and on

2010-03-29T12:40:00.001+08:00

Tired;

& Live like you've never lived before;

2010-03-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

Okay it's complicated.

I feel happy, sad and sian.

Happy cause of birthday wishes. Sad and sian cause of school.
WHY IS MARCH HOLS SO SHORT.
AND I KNOW I HAVENT MAXIMISED THE TIME I'VE GOT.

DONT WANA SUFFER TMR :(

but anyway, i would like to thank everyoneeeee! for being so sweet and nice!

p.s. facebook is bombarding my inbox, but im loving it (:

lovedddd :)

2010-03-20T15:16:00.018+08:00

it's my birthday today :D

haha okay this sounds weirddddd.

anyway, just felt like writing this:

people who wished me happy birthday: (:D)
--in order of time, for fun heeee--

joie! (she's the earliest, haha thought my birthday was 19th!)
cas! (haha thanks for the pressie love it:D)
xiaohan!
papa!
valerie! (haha she sang me bday song over the phoneeeee :D)
mummy! (at 00:00 she stayed up to wish me happy bday ♥)
joan! (at 00:00 sharp:D so sweeet haha)
jingzhan!(at 00:00 sharp:D)
sam lau!
jieru!
wenz!
pinglou!
anne!
gracelim!
bro!
huiyee!
deborah!
nataliewee!
chenyan! (haha UNbirthday:D)
shari!
xinyun!
christine!
akane!
ah yi!
si yi!
nicole!
ryan!
jialin!
teri!
melia!
shiqi!
jinghao!
luqman!
valerieong!
tuanjin!
eunice!
rebecca!
esther!
rain!
justin!
bong!
yingx!
graceooi!
celine!
sa!
andrea!
jean!
stacy!
mrs pey!
yirong!
tuanfong!
cuiqin!
gracetan!
hemin!

yay thanks so muchhhh for making my bday memorable!
sigh, although most of the day is spent planning campcraft schedules ):

2010-03-19T15:38:00.002+08:00

I feel kind of weird now.
Conflicted, I guess.

It's like I can't do anything but keep thinking about stuff related to NP.

Agh, this is not going to work out.

And I don't dare to listen to FTI songs for now cause I'm afraid I'll get addicted again.
No more korean stuff for now.

Does that help?

Sigh.

2010-03-19T10:27:00.000+08:00

IM GETTING ADDICTED TO COMMENTING FB PICS NOWADAYS.

2010-03-18T13:08:00.001+08:00

I discovered more nice songs from FTI:

Until you come
Girls dont know
Tears are falling

Sometimes

2010-03-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I know I shouldn't wait for that orange flash, but every now and then my eyes just stray and I keep checking to see if it lights up. I'm such a failure.

Sometimes I know that I shouldn't, but I'll make up some lousy excuse to continue.

Sometimes I know I shouldn't be so hopeful, because higher hopes bring about greater disappointment.

Sometimes I don't even dare to read it, cause I'm afraid that I will see something unpleasant;

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Guess sth unpleasant happened during unit camp.

Sigh.

Chenyan san I promise next time I wont ditch you guys.

I'll stay through k.

Miahne :/

Walking side by side

2010-03-14T21:32:00.003+08:00

PIZZAZZ WAS KINDA LIKE, hm, a school concert, but since it was for charity I guess it was worth it.

It was held in ACSB and I went there with cas and kailun to support xiaohan. Kinda felt very out-of-place there cause I didn't really know anyone and all the other people there seemed to be from NY, HCI, ACSB and RV. And the thing was they all seemed to know each other. It was awkwarddddd most of the time.

AND wow. ACSB has an underground carpark! The kind you see in shopping malls! Our school really has a lot to catch up on O: There are so many cars and they're all parked everywhere in the school compound (ESP THE PARADE SQUARE AREA)..... -.-

Anyway, I liked the beatbox (:

and perhaps the dance from our school :D supporting dawn and the rest. They seemed very out-of-place too though.

AND GUESS WHAT. I saw Ignatius, the ACSB guy from my ATC group in sec 2! And their NP having unit camp. All the little sec ones blind-folded I BET THEY'RE HAVING NIGHT SURPRISE. SO COOL RIGHT. Our night surprises has never been nice at all. Once it got cancelled, and the other one was DRILLS, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT D:

Looking back, I realised how quickly time has passed. I'm in sec 4 alr.

....

2010-03-14T20:10:00.002+08:00

Full house is nice, but the ending wasnt as good as expected ):

It was quite disappointing....

Love you loads, hatter

2010-03-12T20:52:00.004+08:00

8.52pm,

STATUS:
`Gotta go start work!
`FULL HOUSE: ONLY 6 MORE EPS TO GO :)
`Went to LJS for dinner ate x100000 tonnes of fried food im feeling so oily and grosss now :/ and not to mention, super full.
`AGGGGHHH NEEDA START WORKKK.

SHUTTING DOWN NOOOWWWW.

Shine a light and send it on;

2010-03-11T20:53:00.004+08:00

WELLL...

LJ WEEK HAS BEEN PRETTY SLACK AND KINDA USELESSSSS ):

We're always wasting half an hour to one hour waiting for teachers or buses to come fetch us. What a waste of time D: And today's thursday already ahhhhh oh man I dont want the hols to come cause I know how quickly it'll end and then the exams will come! NOOOOOOO :/

Sigh.

And I REALLY REALLY NEEDA CONTROL MYSELFF. AGHHHH BEEN WATCHING FULL HOUSE AND DEATH NOTE (AGAIN). tsk tsk.

Anyway I REALLY LIKE L FROM DEATH NOTE :D & I found out something really shocking! The guy who acted as L - Kenichi Matsuyama, actually acted as Aya's senpai in the show One Litre of Tears! LOL and I thought he was the typical baddie-faced guy. But when he acted as L, his face was totally different!

Anyway, the cast of Death note will be acting in KAIJI :D AGHHH I WANT TO WATCH KAIJI, but then I think I've been watching too many movies nowadays so 1. NO MONEY, and 2. Bro will complain and mum will scold.

Heh. How come people always get free tickets and I never ever get themmmmm O:

ps. Chenyan san, all the best for jap!

2010-03-08T21:54:00.003+08:00

2010-03-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

2010-03-02T16:12:00.003+08:00

Havent posted for a quite while I realised.

Life's pretty much the same, just that it's getting more and more stressful. And I'm not looking forward to LJ week at all.

Sigh, Christine recommended a jap show called MY BOSS MY HERO to me. Im quite hesitant about watching it cause..
no1: I may get addicted and I already have loads of work to do.
no2: Cant find the time to do so.
no3: I think it's mainly because of this - I still can't get over YB.

But I still want to watch it cause..
no1: I need to improve my jap
no2: I need some entertainment and I heard the show is super funny.
no3: It's kinda a promise.

So anyway, I may watch it during the holidays when I have the time.

And I really need to put down certain things.

Life has to go on, doesn't it?

And cas, send my condolences to your family. Cheer up k.

2010-02-28T15:20:00.003+08:00

2010-02-28T15:19:00.000+08:00

sigh campcraft comp is over.

2010-02-28T11:34:00.001+08:00

As Ever :)

It wasn't supposed to be love
It was never supposed to be
I fooled myself many times before, but my heart keeps on calling you
Before i tried to run away
I tried to push a step away
But even then you were growing bigger inside me

I must love you this much
I must wait for you this much
No matter how much it hurts, my heart can't leave you
There must be one love
My heart won't change
The love I protected for you, now I can tell you everything

Your warm eye expression
Your warm love
You are growing bigger inside me

You must have loved me
You must have waited for me
No matter how much I made you hurt, your heart can't leave me

There must be one love
My heart won't change
The love I protected for you, now I can tell you everything
I love you

Sometimes love, or tears will cause problems for us
I love you, I love you I just need you next to me

I must still love you
I must be waiting for you
I could fool my mind, but not my heart

There must be one love
My heart won't change
The love I protected for you, now I can tell you everything
I love you

2010-02-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

I suck at soccer. Big time. I really hate dragging the team down. No matter how much I try to do my best, I'll screw up somehow. The team lost all because of me.

I am really useless.
Can't do anything right.

Cannot manage my time well.

Cannot make a gadget for the comp.
Kept saying that we should have combined prac every training but it never materialised.

and I realised that people around me are making lots of excuses to avoid having me screw up their stuff.

Sometimes really need someone talk to in class, but it's really hard.

Sometimes, I've really given up.

And I've always vented all my frustration on my family. I shouldnt hurt those who care, and care about those who doesn't.

I just wish this will blow over. I can't do my work properly.

2010-02-09T20:18:00.002+08:00

きょうかなしかった。

2010-02-07T13:23:00.000+08:00

haha this is really funny!

2010-02-07T12:48:00.002+08:00

http://primanoona.wordpress.com/2009/05/05/scanlations-ft-islands-personal-profiles-on-treasure-days-graduation/

lol read hongki's answers for question 15 and 16. they're hilarious :)

FTI SARANGHAE

2010-02-01T22:05:00.003+08:00

私が友達のBLOGを読んで、とても悲しい。
彼女はFTIのFANMEETとFANSIGNに行ったからだ。
どして私が行きたいけど、行けない？

本当に悲しいね。
泣きたい。

将来必ずFTIのコンサートに行くことにする。

今がんばってね。

2010-02-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

2010-01-31T18:21:00.003+08:00

I really can't stand looking at those fancams uploaded on youtube now.

I thought wishes were supposed to come true, friends were supposed to be understanding, and school was supposed to be enjoyable.

But honestly, it's not like that.

Sometimes you shouldn't trust others easily. Some of them appear nice and all, but when the time comes, they desert you. Isn't it sad when most of your friends are like this?

Sometimes you just can't help feeling lost and helpless.

Sometimes you'll just wish that someone is there for you - to lend you a listening ear, and a shoulder to lean on - but when you turn around to look for someone, you realise that nobody's there.

But to those true friends who've really cared, komao ;

2010-01-20T22:40:00.001+08:00

this is so absurd, they can't even converse properly in english.

2010-01-13T19:18:00.002+08:00

Miahne, i've not been posting regularly.

There are so many things to be done so I cant spend too much time blogging :(

And I'm getting so frustrated about the whole campcraft comp. Since I was the one who started the problem, I think I should be the one quitting then there wouldn't be any quarrels already. Should I.

Agh. Hopefully we'll solve everything by tomorrow.

Sigh.

P.S. I'm getting over my addiction. I wonder if that's a good or bad thing.

Tag replies:
Cas: Okay :) anytime lah probably saturday or sunday we go run together k but see whether got time or not :)
C: Yeah ikr it's lame haha but funny right. I like the first video better actually :)

2010-01-10T14:37:00.001+08:00

2010-01-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

1. Internet is working slower than a snail jumping off a cliff.
2. Dozens of jap words waiting to be translated to english.
3. So much to do for e-learning. (i must have been slacking too much last year)
4. np schedules not done.
5. internet connection is so pooooor.
6. i want to do so many things but there's no time.
7. i was sending an email and my internet dced and my email's gone. sheesh.

2010-01-09T11:06:00.001+08:00

As days and months passed by
You didn't call me
Tears fall and my heart hurts
No, it's only temporary
It's probably not, it's probably not
It's probably not, do not appease me
The empty space that you left grows

Even if I see you again, you are my love
Even if I see you hundreds of times, I am your love
You are my love that the heavens have granted
You've only lost your way for a little while
If I am born again, all I want is you
If I love again, all I want is you
You'll come back, you'll come back
Because I don't exist without you

You told me you loved me
Just where did you go, leaving me behind?
My two hands that you held, even our promise
How could you leave me and break that promise?

It's got to be a dream, it's got to be a dream
It's got to be a dream, don't fool me
It is sorrowful that I am left alone

Even if I see you again, you are my love
Even if I see you hundreds of times, I am your love
You are my love that the heavens have granted
You've only lost your way for a little while
If I am born again, all I want is you
If I love again, all I want is you
You'll come back, you'll come back
Because I don't exist without you

I thought that this was all only a nightmare
I just want to wake up from this dream

When today passes and I open my eyes again tomorrow
I'll hope for this to be a dream and not a reality
I'll hope for all this to have been a dream even more realistic than reality
I want you, I still want you

Even if I look back, you are my love
Even if I look thousands of times, I am your love
You are my love that the sky has permitted
We were just momentarily separated
I only want you even if I see other women
I only want you even if I love another
You'll come back, you'll come back
Because I don't exist without you

If I am born again, all I want is you
If I love again, all I want is you
You'll come back, you'll come back
Because you don't exist without me

2010-01-07T20:37:00.003+08:00

My new motto!

Work hard, play hard, train hard, exercise hard!

Haha I hope I won't focus too much on playing hard, cause im currently watching the MV for Barae again :(

CHINESE IS HARD. SO ARE THE REST.

HATE ENG ORALS.

2010-01-06T21:04:00.004+08:00

Just read the book called "The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole". It's a book meant for primary school students. Who cares anyway :)

I think his diary is cool and I shall post an entry everyday if possible.

I find that sec 4 is very hard. Maybe I should have started revising during the holidays. There's no use saying this now. I better get on with downloading Graphmatica if not I won't be able to finish doing my math worksheet.

It's only the second day of school, mind you.

agh, guess what. i just spammed the y!groups with my reply to xynyee. oops.

agh graphmatica is hard! the colours are making me go dizzy seriously!

And yes, i still adore YB and HK.

2010-01-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

FIRST DAY OF JAP LESSON 2010,

We've got quite some work to do;
plus 1 picture compo;
Sensei releases us late;
Cannot be late when coming back for breaks;
Must listen attentively because it's very hard to understand what sensei is talking about. EVERYTHING is in jap.

It's too much for me to absorb in one day.

Worse still, the words in the textbook are so tiny! AND COMPLICATED.

AND A SINGLE PAGE IS CRAMMED WITH SO MANY WORDS!

AND AND AND WORST STILL, THEY DONT PRINT THE VOCAB LIST FOR US ANYMORE.
GUESS WHAT. WE HAVE TO SEARCH FOR THE MEANINGS OURSELVES, AND THERE ARE TONS OF WORDS TO DO SO FOR.

Agh, what can I say.

This is only the beginning.

2010-01-02T22:56:00.001+08:00

watch from around 5 min plus :)

2010-01-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

manwon haengbook (sp?) HAHA

2010-01-02T22:11:00.001+08:00

Haha I didn't know 2 pm was so funny :)

2010-01-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

Life sucks when people around you don't understand how you feel.

2010-01-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

Haha i just read somebody's post recounting about fti's concert in tokyo:

apparently jj was saying something about hk's role in you're beautiful and then the fans started shouting "JEREMY" haha then jj said that "hk is jeremy". and guess what hk said to jj?

he said " BOKU WA HONGKI DESU" (in jap) and then turned to jj and said "BAKA DESKA?"

HAHAHHA :D

2009-12-31T23:58:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PULL YOUR EAR :D

2009-12-31T23:57:00.000+08:00

3 more min to 2010!

2009-12-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA IM HAPPY :D

GUESS WHAT SONG THEY ARE PERFORMING NOW ON CHANNEL 8'S COUNTDOWN!

HAHAH IT'S SORRY SORRY! One of my fav :D Hehe!

And I found out from C that YAB is on YG's cover hahaha oh man so cool and I got my bro to promise to buy it for me heehee :) yayyyyyy.

And I did the fb quiz "Which Kpop idol is your boyfriend" or sth along that line and GUESS WHO I GOT HEEHEEE :D Okay actually it's very lame. Cause I kind of knew that person's birthday as well as the stuff... but I did it sincerely and those were genuine answers so im very happy :D HAHAHA.

yay HAPPY NEW YEAR IN 13 MIN!

2009-12-30T16:47:00.002+08:00

YAB FTW :D

#109

2009-12-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

Manwon Haengbook is FUNNY :D

2009-12-29T21:47:00.002+08:00

Part 2:
- FT Island kuriwo jyo yo (I miss FT Island)
- (According to seunghyun..)
chowa seyo means very happy. But I thought chuwayo/chuwahae means "like"?
- Chi-i gi da (enjoyable)

:D

2009-12-28T21:38:00.005+08:00

Watched Good Daddy Ep 12. It's really very sad towards the end.

I've been watching quite a few sad shows lately. Watching them makes me feel really depressed, but I know that if i don't watch them, i'll feel worse.

Aanyway, the idea of school probably upsets me more than anything else. Why is this dec holiday so short? ):

Right, enough of the sad stuff. Btw I need to say that JGS actually look quite nice when he was younger. Haha. CJH is no longer my idol already he's too cheesy.

LHK AND JGS.
(okay post more pics another day the com is lagging badly)

(it's the guy on the left.)

I'll find a nice LHK photo and paste it here (:

KOREAN FIESTA

2009-12-25T21:25:00.005+08:00

Korean Lectures on Youtube are cool :D

Haha okay not that I've learnt that much, but they're rather useful anyway.

Okay actually I didn't really learn much. These are what I learnt, for now. I'll just update them as I go along:

- Annyeong haseyo (hi, how are you)
- Chonun (name) imnida [adding chonun makes it more polite] (my name is...)
- Mannaseo Panggapsumnida (nice to meet you)
- (Country) saram imnida [adding saram shows the nationality] (I am a...)
- Onunara [means which country] saram imnika (which is your nationality?)
- Komapsumnida (thank you)
- Onunara eso wa sumnika (which country are you from?)
- (Country) eso wa sumnida (I am from...)
- Annyeonghi kaseyo (goodbye, when you are staying and someone else is leaving)

- Vowel sounds: a, or, o, e

Okay actually I think the hangul are not spelt correctly.

(stopped at lesson 4)

2009-12-22T20:16:00.002+08:00

WENT "SIGHTSEEING" IN ION TODAY WITH C, POTATO, MEIJ, (MARIA AND HAITONG LEFT EARLIER) AFTER CAMPCRAFT PRAC.

We planned to invade those high-class shops but in the end we didn't dare to haha. In the end we went to the bookstore there and guess what we found! THE FANGIRLING TYPE OF MAGAZINES. THERE WERE 2 ONLY (related to what we like, of course), WHAT A PITY! but we spent about 10 min looking through every page of the book HAHA AND OUR EFFORTS PAID OFF :D There was an interview with ___ but it was all in traditional chinese writing so I couldn't really understand but nevermind, the picture was enough (:

And Meij couldn't stand us HAHA. We were so fangirly. Potato included.

Oh and we found some korean phrase books teaching you simple sentences and phrases in korean :D It's so cooool. I'm seriously more interested in learning korean than jap (which is so tough D:). okay korean is difficult to master too, but i love watching the dramas SO WHAT CAN I DO.

This website is cool :D
http://www.lifeinkorea.com/Language/korean.cfm?Subject=phrases

2009-12-20T15:12:00.003+08:00

HAHA AWESOME SHOW :D

"WHY IS THERE A FISHY SMELL EARLY IN THE MORNING?"
"IM COOKING BLACK CARP"
"BLACK CARP? WHY BLACK CARP?"
"THERE'S DHA, GOOD FOR THE BRAIN."
"DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S DHA?!" "DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE ACRONYM STANDS FOR"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

and there's another part of the ep which shows heechul saying that the answer is a FOX when it wasn't even an option to choose!! HAHA. but he's quite mean to the daughter ah.

2009-12-20T14:47:00.001+08:00

HK IS SO FUNNY IN GOOD DADDY.

2009-12-20T13:45:00.003+08:00

driving is cool :D
a few days ago i dreamt that i was driving a car and the experience is really too good to be describeable haha. i felt like i was taking a jet plane.

and guess what, i didnt even know how to drive. just anyhow stepped on the pedals. haha and i nearly rammed into the back of a bus but luckily i missed by an inch ;D the unlucky bus behind me rammed into the back of my car. HOHO.

HAHAHAHAHA.

2009-12-20T13:33:00.001+08:00

haha the mimicking part is funny.

2009-12-18T15:57:00.004+08:00

Too funny already chenyan you must watch all these :D

(that's it im so going to watch all the eps of Good Daddy alr :D so entertaining!)

haha heechul is indeed funny!

this is funny too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZApaUSElY4&feature=related
chenyan what's the song at 2:50? i've heard that somewhere before.

2009-12-17T22:24:00.001+08:00

haha funny(:

2009-12-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

"When he sometimes manages to speak well, it is cheesy."

"When it feels like he is lacking something, then it is awkward."

Haha i haven't found something so funny in ages.

2009-12-17T21:36:00.004+08:00

campcraft session today was quite funny with the seniors around.
duxuan, cheryl koh and yunshu :D cheryl koh was really ridiculously amusing today! she kept giggling to herself sometimes haha. i guess im really really gonna miss them ):

i don't want next year to come so soon.

i dont know why these few days i'm sort of in this state of depression. i was worrying about everything: next year - cca, 3rd lang, school, pt, oral, o level, jlpt (AND MY GOODNESS ITS ONLY 2009 NOW -.- )

not that i've done anything productive to reduce my fears.

and im getting really sad too cause i realised there's nothing much more left to stalk of fti. since i've watched so many videos alr. sometimes i feel very miserable because of that too.

2009-12-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

I think drums are really cool haha.

2009-12-14T22:01:00.001+08:00

I really pity Jacob Black.

2009-12-14T11:43:00.003+08:00

Haha I saw this comment on one of the videos on youtube. It's hilarious :D

"first kim hyun joong, then jacob, now shin woo. whats up with these hot guys not getting the girl they want, why doesn't anybody tell them i am available. "

I like My Heart Is Cursing By Kim Dong Wook. And Because I'm a fool by poor Shin Woo.
And I like Really Good Words By Jeremy.

I like CHOLIE too.

2009-12-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHAT.

I FOUND THIS ENGLISH SONG BY FTI ITS REALLY AWESOME. NO KIDDING.

It's the english version of their song - FIRST KISS :D

Always Be Mine

I hear you breathe
You’re lying close to me
The shadows gone
I have found my peace

Oooh You make me calm
With you I’m safe from harm
And right by your side
I’ll stay thru the night
‘til eternity
That’s the way it will be

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

Just like the sun
You make me warm inside
Like a soft summer breeze
A moment to seize
So true I won’t stop loving you

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

FTI :D

FANGIRL POST 007

2009-12-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

RANKING:

I Hope

After Love
Lovesick
Bing Bing Bing (HAPPY SONG HAHAHA)
Bad Woman (haha nearly typed MAD woman)

Don't Love
Marry Me
One Word

Love it, Hate it
Missing You
You Don't Know My Feelings

I knew from first sight
The angel and the woodman
Lie

HAHA ISNT MY RANKING SUPER DETAILED :D

FT 1 ♥

2009-12-13T10:23:00.001+08:00

One Word
Missing You
The One

♥

2009-12-11T22:21:00.001+08:00

Seoul'd Out is tmr.

Guess what. I'm not feeling happy at all.

I think I really need to change. I should stop being so siao and do something more productive. Cause even if 100 bucks fall from the sky now, it'll be too late to do anything, and perhaps I won't even be allowed to use the money on the concert.

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I hope
After Love
Lovesick
Bad Woman
Bing Bing Bing

Still/As Ever
Without word
Promise
Lovely Day
What do I do - Isn't this so meaningful now.

2009-12-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

2009-12-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

I can't disagree with this:
"Hongki is so good that you can't tell the diff between live and the cd recording."

Outing with cas to science centre today was really funny :) We went taking photos everywhere haha. I was being splashed by the water from the fountain. Okay the Body World Exhibition was really educational. I learnt quite a lot, but 10 bucks was still ex D: We wrote crap on the leave-behing-your-comments-book :D

HAHA BEST OF ALL, CAS SIGNED OFF WITH HER NAME :D

We took quite a lot of photos HAHAHA SOME PRETTY UNGLAM ONES AH.
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Okay now for the sad part of my post.
Chenyan, you're right.

Ft's so near yet so far. I've probably just lost my once-in-a-lifetime chance to go to their concert. And this is probably their only concert in Singapore.

And the saddest part of all is to read some other person's blog and read about how happy they are to be able to meet them.

Okay nvm, chenyan, we'll go to their concert next time when we start to earn money.

P.S. I want FT to be interviewed by the mags here and I wana buy the mags!
P.P.S. I want to buy the FT notebook and the character files D:

Yeah, dream on.

2009-12-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

Haha this is funny :)

YUP YOU'RE RIGHT CAS I'M CRAZY HAHA :D

saranghae

2009-12-09T19:53:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA THIS WAS MY DREAM WHICH MADE CHENYAN BURST OUT LAUGHING IN THE MRT AND HAVE A LOT OF PEOPLE STARING AT HER:

Okay I dreamt that I was sort of swimming in the ocean with my brother and cousins. Haha how funny :D I was so scared that I would drown cause there were currents. Then, suddenly, we sort of became speedboat-like! As in we could tread on water and it was REALLY SO COOL. And so we zoomed right to the other end of the ocean and there was this big grey mountain haha. HUMONGOUS I mean. Okay then we stood on a rock floating in the middle of nowhere. AND GUESS WHAT. We started throwing uno cards. HAHA THIS IS AWESOME RIGHT.

Okay end of story!--------------------------------------------------------------------------

today is the last day of wep :D
haha i was very excitedddddddd. cause i'm quite tired of work ):

yeah but i think i'll miss the staff members there ESP THE PEOPLE AT LEVEL ONE HAHA THEY'RE SO AWESOME-LY FUNNNNNNYYYYYYY. AND THE PEOPLE AT LEVEL SIX TOOO. They were all so entertaining sometimes. The jokes they crack HAHAHA - not even meant for us but it was so loud that we needn't eavesdrop haha!

but really, i think i'll miss them ): IF I GET PAID, I'LL DEFINITELY GO BACK THERE NEXT YEAR. AND THAT IS, IF.

Okay I guess even though this is over I'll still be pretty busy. Tmr going out with cas, friday maybe going out with val, then sunday do cip at library, and then dont-know-which-day go watch new moon with chenyan, and then next tuesday emily says she's going to treat likhee and me :D (haha i feel so thick-skinned).

AND YES I FORGOT TO MENTION THE BRILLIANT CAMPCRAFT PRAC DATES WHICH I MYSELF SET. D: the thought of it makes my life sad.

Okay fine i'm not going to worry about that YET.
Now I must be good and go waste my time away in FT Island's songssssss :D

FT Island! ♥

p.s. HAHA I SAW XIAOHAN 2 TIMES THIS WEEK SO COINCIDENTAL :D
p.p.s. When will 100 bucks fall from the sky so that I can go to FT Island's concertttttt!

2009-12-07T20:57:00.001+08:00

2009-12-06T18:41:00.005+08:00

HAHA GUESS WHAT.

I DREAMT OF FT ISLAND LAST NIGHT.

I was at their concert and guess where it was held.

My primary school's hall. I was like "homggggg :D i'm at their concert haha so cool" then I saw them haha I couldnt see the faces though I was so close to them. All I saw were silhouettes haha so weird right. Apparently only a few people were there. HAHA and I was moping about feeling sad for them cause I was thinking maybe they won't come to sg anymore since there are so few supporters here.

But then I was so happy cause there were so few people and I was close enough to get them for their signatures. HAHA. Then I saw Chenyan and Likhee (wep sec 4 HAHA) and asked them for pen and paper and they said they didn't bring. And I turned around and realised that I was holding my WEP notebook HAHA. And then I went to the stage excitedly.

AND THEN GUESS WHAT. The person-in-charge said I didn't buy tickets so I can't get their signatures. I was so disappointed D: Then I realised that there was nothing I could do and I took out my phone and started taking photos HAHAHA. Then I saw lee hongki HAHA. With curly hair. HAHA must have been watching too much of the ft island's parody of BOF :D

Then after that he disappeared and I can't rmb what happened.

HAHA THAT WAS A WEIRD DREAM. HAHA SO SAD I DIDNT GET THEIR SIGNATURES IN THE END, EVEN THOUGH IT WAS JUST A DREAM ):

I'm such a stupid fangirl isn't it.

HAHA ANYWAY GOOD NEWS, VAL IS BACK FROM TAIWAN :D